I just dont know anymore....

Van_Fox · March 18, 2011, 10:20:42 PM

Before I spill my heart out, if your the drama police then gtfo and grow a heart.

Ive been through a lot of sh*t in the past, but what happened to me recently just made me question why I should keep living. Im not gonna go into detail, cause even thinking about what happened makes me feel worse. Right now I have no one to talk to, no one that cares, and no one i can rely on. Yes, I know its not the end of the world, but try after try of making things better only to lead them to disaster, I feel like theres no point in trying anymore. If all your gonna do is tell me to suck it up and move on, then go F*ck yourself, grow a heart. Im not posting this to troll or start drama, im just posting this in hopes that someone can help me and to let others who are in contact with me know whats going on. I dont wanna talk about this anymore in public, if you have something to say to me, pm me.

PurpleVeggie · March 18, 2011, 10:29:48 PM

You know what, lets talk. I want to talk to you. I can't stand communicating online with someone I haven't met or I don't know through someone. But hey it's Spring Break now, so plenty of free time.

Really, nearest Starbucks to you or Metrotown or whatever. You need to meet with another fur.

Van_Fox · March 18, 2011, 10:45:41 PM

Well i dont live near metro but I can bus to downtown van when im free. But I dont like meeting people on the net unless i talk to them online first...

Sevrin · March 18, 2011, 10:57:45 PM

dude, she isn't gonna bite, and it sounds like some face time would really do you some good. sitting in front of the computer all day is depressing, i know, i did it for 4 years straight, get out and socialize, it feels good.

Van_Fox · March 18, 2011, 11:12:02 PM

i never said i sit infront of it all day, I have a Job.

Sevrin · March 18, 2011, 11:23:18 PM

i didn't say every day... the point is you need to get out and socialize with some nice people that actually give a shit, besides, i thought you wanted to meet some females? this is a perfect chance for you, i gotta say i'm a little envious.

RainRat · March 18, 2011, 11:30:03 PM

If you need to, call Kids Help Phone; I'm not joking, they support teens too 1-800-668-6868

And I don't know how bad your feeling, but if you need it 1-800-SUICIDE is a real number for crisis counseling.

MurphyErasmus · March 18, 2011, 11:40:06 PM

1800-SUICIDE saved my life. Several times.

I know what it's like to feel hopeless. I know what it's like to feel like nothing's going to get better.

I'll PM you my cell phone number. I'm happy to talk to you any time, day or night - literally. Sometimes, it helps just having someone who knows what it's like to feel like things aren't worth it anymore - someone who will tell you, honestly, that there IS something to live for, that things ARE worth it, and that if you 'solve' your problems with something as drastic as suicide, it will hurt a lot of people for a very long time.

And Purple's already offered to meet up with you - I'm extending the same offer. You can talk to me online as long as it takes you to get comfortable.

Trust me, having people around you, people who care for you and want to help, will help.

PurpleVeggie · March 19, 2011, 12:33:53 AM

Quote from: PurpleVeggie on March 18, 2011, 10:29:48 PM
I can't stand communicating online with someone I haven't met or I don't know through someone.

Quote from: Van_Fox on March 18, 2011, 10:45:41 PM
But I dont like meeting people on the net unless i talk to them online first...

WHAT A CONUNDRUM! o: Hmm, I am just kinda agreeing to meet a total stranger who as far as I know hasn't shown up at any meets and may very well be a trap (no offense).

So PM me with what ever you want to say and we can get a conversation going.

Also Murphy why haven't we met and become awesome friends yet?

MurphyErasmus · March 19, 2011, 01:28:19 AM

Quote from: PurpleVeggie on March 19, 2011, 12:33:53 AM
Also Murphy why haven't we met and become awesome friends yet?

WELL LET'S HANG OUT.

Seriously =D

Xen Garden · March 19, 2011, 04:25:11 AM

We talked maybe twice on MSN but I haven't seen you pop online since. I was hoping we could have talked more and possibly be friends?

kohl · March 19, 2011, 11:59:10 AM

I believe everyone puts themselves in this same situation, no matter what kind of scenario they're in. After living for so long in a self presrving enviroment there's little contrast to one trying to extend there life. Instead of risking your neck for a meal or constantly being on watch for predators around you, there's fenced courses to take your path. With life there needs to be death, if you don't get that feeling from some external force then it seems your own mind will try to create it for you. For humans, it's a really tricky process. Grown to be long lasting, just so we may become more clever then our surroundings. If we don't continue to enhance our minds, from reality, our minds will develop there own problems just so they'll have something to puzzle out and grow around. Even effecting you so far as making your body soar, tired, or in pain.

kohl · March 20, 2011, 12:45:13 PM

Look a couple branches up, ***. Lucky I came back to edit.

Van_Fox · March 26, 2011, 05:35:31 PM

Just to let everyone know, im taking a leave from the forum for a bit. Some people have gotten on my nerves and need to chill out. If i get any PMs ill only come here to check them. So if you wanna contact me, I have msn.

PrincessFox · March 26, 2011, 11:01:02 PM

:gay: Sorry to hear your not doing well, and that you are taking a leave. Hope to see you again.