Tired of the life you made for yourself

[EmoFox]

You don't miss the weather, or the smell. You miss being that younger age.

Now you're just barely starting to have responsibilities. Just barely starting to have decisions that actually have impact-full results.

It'll get better after it gets a little worse.

Its rare that i agree with Ember, but I think he hit the nail on the head with this one.

[dobie]

Hehe yup! I actually do miss it.

rofo i think your depression is more or les confinment. like trying to escape security of a at home situation.
try taking a chance a risk and dont let your assets hold u back. more assets u aquire the more settled u are.
rember u can have schooling the life u want and fun so dont think of just having one thing.
and when u would like to hang out with ppl rember to keep in mind every ones on there own path or journey.
any time u would like to hang out just let me know i live like 10 minutes away me and my dog walk the campbell river beach allot and go camping your welcome to join recreation
i see auron allot to and a few furry friends in campbell river every month

[blue-vulpine]

First mistake was saying that you wanted to hear people stories, because I love having the opportunity to talk haha.

I lived outside of a very small town in Nova Scotia. About 14km away from anything that resembled civilization. I was surrounded by forests of evergreens, birch and maple trees and the occasional marshland. Because of the iron in the ground, the water had a red hue to it, and the creek that ran through our 6.5 acre backyard got its name "Bloody Creek" from that fact.

I spent my free time roaming around the South Mountain range (They call it a mountain back east, but its more like a hill) on my fourwheeler, catching painted belly turtles, frogs, fireflies, snakes, you name it.

I miss the long, lazy days of summer back east. Simply everything about dusk was especially magic. We would sit on the back porch and just listen to the sounds of frogs and crickets, and even the howling of wolves at times.
Living in such a secluded area gave me an appreciation for quiet time, often spent paddling back country lakes, or exploring a new branch of logging road.
The lifestyle out there is much more laid back then here out west. The only place that even comes remotely close in being laid back and chill is Tofino and Ucluelet.

I actually teared up a bit hear while typing and reminiscing about it, and the fact is that I can't even begin to describe all the things about that place that made it home.

I have never felt that feeling since I moved back in 2005. I now live in Nanaimo underneath a computer store on one of the busiest streets, and the only good thing about it is my friends. I honestly can't stand this town, let alone city living.
I'm not necessarily a country boy, but I need to be away from big places. Hell, even a town of 30,000 people is too big for me.
So to answer the question of the OP, at this stage in my life, I am not where I want to be, and I'm not overly thrilled about it. But I am glad to say I am working to make get where I want to be. ^^

What I want more then anything is to one day find that warm feeling of home again, here on the West Coast. To have my home and fill it with friends and good times.
I can honestly say the only thing that has kept me from returning to Nova Scotia is the fact that BC's wilderness is truly wild and exciting. Where else can I hike in a dense rain forest, learn to surf one of the best spots in Canada, kayak through deep rock canyons, sit and relax in a secluded hot spring, or just go exploring all within a three hours drive. And that's just the island...

I think I can understand what you mean Roffo. There is a place, both real and in our past that maybe will never be what it once was, but it set the bar for an ideal way we'd like to live. What Ember said really made a lot of sense to my own story. A big part of being back east was not having the respnsibilities that I do now. The carefree aspect is something I really miss.

Great topic, and hopefully I didn't bore anyone to death haha.

-Tj