In short I've done something stupid I can't right but...
I keep getting stuck between wanting to keep caring for people no matter how much they hate me, or even i dislike them (don't think there's anyone i really dislike), and the other option of being more cold and less caring. Though it sounds like an easy choice i suppose, i still have a blinding amount of anger directed at no one really, sitting around.
On another note I'm 18 and wouldn't mind meeting some more furs around the tri-cities area, or so. Or having some more to talk to.
See whether you can attend any of the furry meetings that are held on a weekly basis. Whether it is Sushi Tuesday or wings and things.
Remember to be open to anyone you will meet and be curious and express interest. Tends to go a long way as challenging this may be at the beginning.
Regardless of whether or not the person(s) ever forgive you, the thing that's most important to do is change whatever is needed to change, to improve yourself and make sure it doesn't happen again.
Grudges have the opposite effect: they discourage progress and improvement. Grudges are completely and entirely unproductive.
Grudges against yourself (self-hatred) are no different; if you can't forgive yourself you'll never be able to improve. It's not entirely about acting like it never happened as it is about recognizing the past and acting on it in a smart way.
It would most likely be best to stay away from the person(s). By improving yourself, you are benefiting everyone, and anyone who does not want you to improve should not be a part of your life, even if you care about the person. It's a hard thing to do, but it's ultimately for the best.
Just my human advice, take with recommended grams of salt (who the hell measures salt in grains anyway?)
Man a week feels long.. or two
Things are just kinda awkward now, dunno how to describe it really, and while I'm not sure 100% of the things said are the greatest of ideas, just because somehow things are more normalish now, there are a few things that I will definitely have to consider now...
Thanks guys btw, I don't tend to normally rant until it builds up and well, hit that point i suppose! (On another note i do go to sushi, and was just at vancoufur, tiring)
I wouldn't mind changing this into more of a I'd like to meet you guys on here a bit more so send me a message ^^
Think looking at things in text helps more than i thought sometimes
If you live in Canada, my number is always available. I don't give the best advice, but every once in a quite my advice is oddly useful. I live on the island, so we cannot hang out like that, but every once in advice while I do try to head over there.
I hope you're safe... anger is advice nd fickle mistress.